DREAMING OF DEATH

SO A LOT LATELY I HAVE BEEN NEAR DYING. LAST NIGHT/THIS MORNING I ALMOST GOT SHOT AT A RESTAURANT I JUST STARTED THAT DAY. I MESSED UP SOOOO MANY ORDERS AND COULDN'T FIND ANYTHING ON THE COMPUTER AND BROUGHT A LADY A WATER INSTEAD OF SPRITE AND WHEN I RETURNED TO GET THE REST OF THE ORDERS THERE WERE NEW PPL AND LA DI DA.. A BLACK MAN CAME IN AND SAID SOMETHING ABOUT ALL THE BLACK PEOPLE ARE ABOUT TO DIE AS HE GRABBED A HUGE BOTTLE OF WINE. THERE WERE ONLY ABOUT 2 BLACK PPL THERE OTHER THAN HIM, ONE BEING ME. I WAS HAVING A BAD DAY AT WORK ANYWAYS SO I JUST RAN, RAN, RAN OUT. WHEN I GOT OUTSIDE AND TURNED AROUND TO LOOK IN, THE GUY WITH THE BOTTLE WAS THERE FACING ME WITH A LONG GUN. I'M JUST LIKE PLEASE NOT ME PLEASE AND THEN I HAD TO SHAKE MYSELF OUT OF MY DREAM.

I'VE HAD DREAMS SIMILAR TO THIS LATELY AND THOUGHT MAYBE I AM DYING BECAUSE THESE DREAMS ARE REOCCURING AND IT'S GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO SHAKE MYSELF OUT IN ORDER TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY. SO I DECIDED TO LOOK UP WHAT A DREAM ABOUT DEATH REALLY MEANS.

THIS IS WHAT I GOT FROM DREAM MOODS DICTIONARY'S WEBSITE::


To dream that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or in your life. Although such a dreams may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm and is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.

On a negative note, to dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation.



SO HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING A CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IS IN MY NEAR NEAR FUTURE. IT'S WEIRD HOW ALL THESE EVENTS ARE HAPPENING TO ME SINCE LEAVING ATLANTA. MEETING A MALE WHOSE SO MUCH LIKE ME BUT AT THE SAME TIME DIFFERENT.. MY 'BROTHERS' MOTHER PREACHING TO ME, MY BESTFREND AND ME GOING CRAZY, AND IN-BETWEEN IT ALL, PROBABLY EACH EVENT, THESE NEAR DEATH DREAMS.


IM MOVING TO SAN DIEGO IN ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF AT THE LATEST, AND THIS MIGHT BE THE BIGGEST CHANGE IN MY LIFE THAT I NEED. I BELIEVE IT WILL BE AND DESPITE ALL THE NEGATIVE PPL IN MY LIFE SAYING IM NOT MOVING AND LA DI DA THAT THIS IS WHAT I NEED AND WHAT'S BEST FOR ME. IMA START BACK UP WITH SCHOOL AND I'M CURRENTLY ON A WORKOUT PLAN AND A DIET.


CANT WAIT FOR THE FUTURE.

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